Oh, where the years did go?
one may never know.
What days spent running, care-free
Just you and me.
the youth had left your eyes
too soon to say goodbye.
the colour left your hair
time left so quick, it’s so unfair.
So sleep soft this day.
May rest find your way.
now I’m so alone this day
We’ve got no time to weep,
Cause we’re knee deep
In the grave you’ll find your sleep
Your eyes, the sky were grey
The weather, so cliché.
Let’s get this underway
Tonight, I’ll stay awake
My heart can’t flee the ache
Now I know, life’s so give and take
so sleep soft this day
may rest find your way
and I know I’ll be okay
I know it’s there
I feel it on me
I can’t help but breathe it in
I don’t fear depression
I embrace it’s madness with eager arms
and curse as it leaves me here
How can I heal when
all I have is my anger
how can I live when
if the world burnt away
I would stand at it all
Who am I to say “you can be healed”
when my open wounds
reach across my soul
am I but a hypocrite
am I only lost
I can’t let it go
it’s all I’m living for
the sergeant cries out
as the wide beach opens to us
what this minute means
soldiers brought to tears
anxious in the waking madness
Juno’s her name
her voice calls to me
in the sound of released shells
her arms reach far
her face runs deep
smoke laces the sky like her hair
mortars like freckles
bunkers like eyes
wire strung along,
grinning at us all
Juno’s her name
gunpowder is her breath
her face so far to tread
merely but ten seconds now
rifles at the ready
shifting in my place
the whistle blows
as the gates release.
men like wild dogs race out
to greet the coming madness
Juno’s her name
her face so spoiled
with blood and bodies alike
So I lay here now
not knowing how to move
body broken for you
Juno was her name
her lips, now my grave
her song and mine the same
These memories; such are the chips in the pot.
What have I in my hand? nothing but the joker stares me eye to eye
What have i ever stood for? what confidence have I in commitment?
The sights and sounds run through my mind day in and night out
streaking down and down like lines, they long for an ending
I’d burn it all if only you’d give me but a match
I’d slash your pretty eyes out would that stop your jealousy
Have i ever faced rock bottom? or has my dilemma just been an utter cry for pity
I fear the shadow of humility, desiring of me what i cannot be
I don’t know what my words mean anymore
My porcelain mask has cracks deeper than my soul
So I bear the weight of depression like a hiker with his daily meals trudging through the alps
I dance a lie like many others; a quick waltz to “no really”, a tango of “i’m fine”
I’ve hated for so very long. I’ve hated and hated, and burned my hatred clean, I’ve grown so old and tired, and i’m barely seventeen
It was a beach I sat at for long And surrounded by fog My sight was so wrong And where I was, I bled and cried Lost and alone, and nowhere to hide
I had once found a stone, so beautiful Though far from the shore Not simple to grasp To fetch this one stone, I swam in the sea But the shrill waters had nearly drowned me
I awoke on the land, broken and sore Coughing up blood, crying “no more!” I opened my eyes, only to see A beautiful gem staring at me
I picked the stone right out of the sand The beautiful stone was warm in my hand I’ll hold this gem so close to my heart And pray to The Lord, “Don’t take us apart”
Was it the gift you gave to the boy, Who promised you the world, Then threw you away like an old toy?
Was it the abusive wife, The unending alcohol, That made you take your life?
Was it from the girl who stole your heart, That causes your cold sweat to seep, And your burning tears to fall
So you search for your steel cure, As you silently weep, And your world hits rock floor
On this bloody stained bed, Where your fix finds its fixation, And your heart screams “Go ahead! Go ahead!”
When there’s a hole in your soul, Your life quietly lifts away. And you pray for your last day.
Where the shadows lie You’ll find no hope, no life, no love
So step into the light
Where there’s a hero in us all
No matter the fall, no matter the pain There’s always a way to restore The life, the love you had before